Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Pipi is pain pain again. Just got back from the docs… need to have more intake on fiber!! Lucky this time got more medication, gonna keep it in case it happens again. It’s already the third time this year! This is the first time that the doc has pushed it back in ~~ felt weird ~~ Hmmm.. I wonder… is that the way it feels ? haha
But it felt so much better ~ no more hindrance ^__^ Have to put medication tonight again thou…
It’s the second last day before the year has come to an end. I would say this has been quite a good year for me although there have a few hiccups here and there. Overall, I still feel that this is a fabulous year with the promotion and a perhaps new beginning? In any case, I am still very much hopeful that every year will be a better year. Every year is a learning journey for me and I just have to enjoy the progress of the growing me.
Every argument and disagreement in the past has also enticed me to do some housekeeping to both lovey dovey relationship and friendship. Some ppl are just meant to pass by and some are for keeps. Even if the relationship of any sort does not last, I am thankful that God made it happen for a reason. Sometimes certain friends and individuals are meant to be let go and I am going to do just that. In life, I guess it is not the number of friends or acquaintances that one but the number of true friends that you have in your life that makes it fulfilling.
I have just gotten an annoying msn message from someone that I loathe and I cannot believe that the person even have the face to msn me! How disgusting and I simply ignore such individual as there is no need to show any leniency or tolerance of any sort. That is only wasting my time, I think watching my Korean drama or playing bejewel on facebook is worth much more than responding to that person. eeeeWWW!!
Hmmm gonna think of new year resolution = ) it’s going to be one long list keke
3:26 PM
Monday, December 28, 2009
I was lazing around on Sunday afternoon with Samuel. We had lunch and sometime alone together at my place. I was so sleepy after lunch and took a light nap with Samuel watching NBA. We seem to take to sleep, once I woke up his turn to feel sleepy and guess what I was watching a new Korean drama!! Cruel Temptation as recommended by Padma, it is currently showing on Channel U at 7pm. Saw one episode and it got me hooked! Wah~~~Padma always knows what kind of show I would go after. Time to scold the television once more….hee hee hee (I am going to cont’d watching it tonight)
We went to watch Bodyguards and Assassin at Downtown east and damm it was a pretty bloody show. But I still like it cos there’s Donnie Yen!! OMG, he is still so handsome and man ~~~ If u enjoy fighting shows then u will enjoy it = ) I still wanna watch new moon , Edward Edward Edward !!!
It was a simple night with movie, shopping at Courts and Giant. Nothing overly special but I still felt very blessed to enjoy the night with him.
Samuel is ever so thoughtful to send me to work and have breakfast together = ) I appreciate everything small little gesture he has taken and shown.
More pressies received today and they are all so kawaii neh!! Thank you for all the pressies ^___^
Thought today can meet up with Jo but she forgot she got classes to attend!! Diaozzzzz … So it has been once again postponed to Wednesday for dinner. Lucky my school hasn’t started, otherwise where got time to meet on weekdays? School gonna start soon again ….hectic schedule once again. Shall rest more while it is still possible, once the gear has been changed, it will be non-stop till April?
I still wanna go rollerblade with Layee before she flies back to Aussie. There seems to be a lot of things which I wanna do before school starts! But for now, I am counting down to New Year’s Eve =P
6:03 PM
Sunday, December 27, 2009
I love the Christmas Programme that Samuel has planned for our Christmas celebration on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day
(Dinner + facial and body massage + Famous Yong Tau Fu @ Chinatown + Shopping at VivoCity)
Photos will be uploaded soon = )
I enjoy it alot but ain't gonna comment alot cos the day is very very special to me.
The effort that Samuel has placed on this day has made it even more important than ever.
3:33 PM
Threshold is up and Ultimatum is here.
U wanna hide but its of no use.
3:31 PM
Boxing Day is over and let's see what gifts have i gotten for this year(for now).
Nokia E72 from Samuel (Love it and its super duper useful)
Gucci Flora from Padma (Thank you BIG BIG!! Loving it!!! i am glad u like the pressie too)
Pretty Fit Sandals from Buddy Mabel (Ooo u have the see the sandals!! love it!!Great Taste ^__^)
Lovely Blanket (Handmade) from Auntie ^_____^ (it very pretty!! made from different cloths together)
Gingerbread from Layee (wo she bu de chi wor)
Memo stand from Sanying
Face Mask from Eunice
Mark and Spencer Bath Set from Jamie
Royce Chocolate from Fhamy
Nail Polish from Cynthia
strawberry memo from Mandy
Santa Claus chocolate from Mummy Jac
Chocolates and Jellybin from Stella
Embo case from Nora
Chocolate nuts (handmade) from Fiona
Spot corrector and disney mug from frederic
Gonna meet more ppl and i still have pressies not given out!!kekeke
3:17 PM
Thursday, December 24, 2009
It’s Christmas Eve!!!
Hooray!! Long waited for this day ever since my last paper kekeke … cos… tonite I have a special date with Samuel ^___^ I am waiting for the surprise program that he has carefully planned. More to be updated after Christmas!! He has bought the LX3 and lots of photos will be taken = )
Dinner last night was good! It was a long time since all the girls has catch up with one another. Instead of having Japanese Ramen we went to Ichibanboshi @ Centrepoint. The queue is so long and we had to wait for our seats for quite a while. Lucky, it was a group wait instead of a individual wait ! (Service Marketing? Lol) Perhaps due to Christmas crowd dining at the place and we had to remind our orders before it was finally served. San Ying had to ask 3 times for her chawanmushi!! Goodness~~~~
We ordered lots of food! Food was great as usual, at least for me lol (Samuel and I had Beef Shabu Shabu, Sashimi, Agedashi Tofu, kappa maki,Unagi Handroll, Salmon Maru, lobster sushi, cha soba) My fav Cripsy Lobster Salad Roll kekek, 3 plates of that whahahaha.
Lots of gossip has been shared over the table and it’s been long time for a fun nite out. A pity that Valerie isn’t back else she will be able to join in the gossip and updates of our lives whahaha. As requested, I will post the photos up to facebook for Val. We stayed in the restaurant until we were the last customers in the restaurant!! Heee see how much is there for us to talk, it could go on and on and on.
Been coughing for quite a while (Throat Itchy!!) and Samuel insist on buying “chuan bei pi pa gao” for me to eat. I wanna siam also cannot siam and I was made to drink that. Lol lucky he allow me to mix with water to drink = ) But I dun like the minty taste = ( but bo bian had to drink it anyway.
Wat’s Christmas gathering without pressie? Heee gave out all the pressies and hopefully it will be well-liked by the girls. Glad that Padma likes the green pressie ^__________________________^
Now waiting for lunch time to come!!
The whole team is heading to the Ship restaurant for our Christmas luncheon =) Chosen Beef for my main course and I hope it is nicely done. Fingers crossed for my half day to come.. I hope to catch some time to do something before heading over to meet up with Samuel. Hee Hee Praying that his bike will be fixed in time too = P
Looking forward…………..
11:27 AM
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
It’s the 23 December!!
Just one more day to Christmas Eve and soon Christmas will arrive. Samuel is making me super duper excited about tomorrow’s event. I am still trying to guess what the surprise will be = ) Going to take lots of photos with perhaps a new camera? Hahaha Samuel is thinking of getting the LX3 tonight so that we can snap photos for the first Christmas that we are gonna spend together. Feel so blessed and all that is unfolding before me makes me feel that the decision was the right one. I just hope that Samuel did not spend too much for the surprise, although his effort has been a thousand of words and messages to me. I appreciate what he has done so far and it makes me treasure this special bond we have together even more than ever.
He mentioned that New Year’s Eve will be even more special than Xmas eve… hmmmm… I wonder what it will be. In the meantime, I am preparing for tomorrow lol. Hopefully, I will be able to get half day after lunch (unofficial one). Not too sure how it will be cos last year we were only released at 5pm. But colleagues were saying that it’s usually after lunchie. So I can only pray, hope and wish with my fingers crossed!
Sha Mei is very happy at the present moment = )
Today was slightly busier than ytd (think its pretty obvious? ) but still very much manageable. Jocelyn had to cancel her meet up with us at the last minute due to her work schedule = ( I was really hoping to meet up with her and see the expression when I pass over the gift kekeke. Come to think of it, I think it’s the first time I ever bought her a Christmas and her birthday gifts. It was either we lost contact along the way or she and I had programs planned separately with our own groups (cos xmas mah, forgive me !!) I hope she hasn’t found a new wallet to replace her coach! Cos I was hoping she will replace with the one padma and I are sharing for her.
3:54 PM
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
10 more mins to go home !! hooray!! Can the time move faster?
Can’t wait for Christmas Eve to come !
What am I anticipating? I have no idea but I just wanna spend a good Christmas with him and pray that all will work out fine… I guess every girl will need a certain degree of assurance, and sometimes a little gesture will suffice.
There’s nuthin much I can do about it, cos forcing and asking is futile. Moreover, I know that I am worth it! Though sometimes I ponder on the length of the waiting time.
As long as I know that I did my part and have put in the effort. Whether it is recognized or not.. I guess at least I tried my best. There’s only so much I can do and the rest is up to him and above.
I hope I am not wrong in trusting someone else (not him = p) If the worse happens…I just have to deal with it. Though the expectations are high, but I still trust that he won’t fail me cos he has met most of the expectations.
I am not difficult to please.. just have to understand me.
I remember Jeremy asked me if I would ever feel jealous? My answer?
Of cos, if I dun feel jealous then I am not a female (when in a relationship of cos) If I am not jealous.. then something must be wrong cos it would signify that I couldn’t be bothered with the guy. He must be of some weight in my heart else it would be difficult to make me jealous.
6:12 PM
Mind is wandering too far off again! Come back come back!!
Just observe and thou shall not be blinded
5:10 PM
Tml will be the nite that I will be introducing Samuel to my schoolmates. Wonders what will their reaction be? Most importantly, I would wan him to feel comfortable.. I hope this decision is right.. sha mei is wondering again. I am sure Samuel will say “bu yao sha le” hee = ) But then again.. will it?
I must say that he has been so wonderful = ) taking care of me and all the gifts that he got for me from the perfume to the earrings to the E72 phone. He always brings me to great places for makan and I appreciate that and I like it when we share similar interest and thoughts. All the little nitty gritty details play a big part of how strongly I feel towards him.
I wanna post photos!!! Can I ?
Anyway, I am gonna wrap a lot of pressies tonight! Am going to be santa claus tml and I hope I will be able to carry them to the office!! lol
2:16 PM
I am so damm upset.
Why can’t you just love yourself more. Is it really that difficult? Is he the only guy in this world? The answer is NO!!
If he is genuinely wants to be frens with u, then is it such a disgrace to let your frens know? Are u the underground mistress or wat!
I had enough.. like what I said
“If you do not love yourself, then I do not need to love you and treasure u as a fren”
There’s nothing wrong to be friends after a failed relationship. But is the intention true? I doubt so in your case. If the intention is with a true and pure heart, be friends by all means. I should never be the influence of your decision of whether u wan to cont’d be frens with him or not.
All I ask, is for a pure Patricia Tan, the person whom I know for the past 5 years. Not someone who is an absolute stranger who stoops herself to such a level and behave what u are right now.
There are no memories to linger on b/w him and you.
It’s OVER!
OVER and DONE with. Embrace yourself and move forward in life. Whether or not there’s a possible future for both of you, that’s in the FUTURE. F_U_T_U_R_E !! Understand!!!! NOT NOW!!!
As mentioned, I have no qualms to cut u off from my life if you do not start loving yourself. I dun have the time for another 3 years to waste on you to get u out of a shit hole. You are an adult, u should have learned well from those freaking 3 years. U dun need another one.
Be True and Pure!
This will be the last time I am going to say this. The next time it happens, I will press DELETE-> ENTER
12:19 PM
Shopping Spree!!
Phew~~ I think I have managed to purchase all the gifts that I needed to get = ) Gotten some new Paul & Joe Stuff kekeke I am a sucker when it comes to nice packaging ^___^ the foundation is so nice! The sales promoter was so sweet~~ she helped me to pluck and shaped my eyebrows for free and lots of free samples. I bought a concealer as well cos my dark circles are getting pretty bad from last week lol, time to do some pampering to my eyes.
Hmm.. The paul and joe foundation is better than Laneige’s.. Shall see if it oxidizes lots in the afternoon. For now, the effect is perfect! Loving it~
So what else did I get?
A longchamp bag in paper colour for mummy (the long handle kind) heee, I like the colour. But it’s easy to be dirtied so mummy has to take good care of it.
Hooray! Going to meet layee, san, Eunice, Jocelyn and padma on Wednesday nite at ion for(drum roll!!) Japanese Ramen!! Lol It happens that Jo’s birthday falls on Christmas eve, so her pressie is the most expensive! But then I hope she will like it ^__^ I hope Padma will also like the limited edition jade colour for the wristlet bought for her =)
Frederic came over to my place to pass me my present last night. Too bad it was raining, else I would be able to talk to Georgina (hope I din get the name wrong). In fact, I actually think they look pretty compatible, just like how I told Amanda the other day (bumped into her at BHG Bugis)
11:53 AM
Monday, December 21, 2009
Hooray!! My credit cards have all been approved! La la la la la la ^__^
Most importantly!! I did not get them as a Supplementary card! It’s all with my own efforts! Whahaha I suddenly feel so proud of myself = ) kekeke
Oleh ~Oleh Oleh Oleh ~ Oleh Oleh ~
Gotten the UOB ladys + UOB one + Citi Clear + Citi Dividend. Next in line POSB everyday card (haha for supermarket shopping) I am so happy with my Citi Dividend that I can earn rebates at Tangs whahaha so shall shop more there .. the beauty counter!! Zoooooooooommmmmmmm!!
4:19 PM
Jeremy had organized a Christmas gathering right after our final paper at Wala Wala.. hmmm.. why does everyone seems to think that I would have been there before? Lol it’s my first visit there!
It was pretty pack on the Friday nite so we had to settle for lower deck. I went there slightly later as I had to attend my dept’s Christmas party at the Env building. Samuel was really nice to fetch me there before heading down to Wala Wala. I left the party at approx 11.20 to head down to Holland Village and I couldn’t get a cab! I took a bus down to Orchard, thinking that it would have been easier to take from Lucky Plaza. However, it was jammed and I had to wait for 30 minutes?!!!
I finally reached Holland Village and I had no idea how to get to Wala Wala. Lucky Samuel was nearby having his dinner cum supper with some classmates and he spotted me. Phew~~else I would have gotten lost! Haha
Hmmm.. din had much to drink though.. the menu just does not seem to excite me… it’s like either lychee martini or baileys on the rock (the usuals) but I wanted something different. Beer? Hmmm afraid that I can’t finish but maybe I should try the Hoegarden the next time. In the end, I had Vodka Lime, it’s one for one whahahaha. Sour lo!! Ordered Parma Ham pizza and had a little girl chat with Dawn. Hopefully all will be well for her = )
It was the time for the Christmas exchange and I had gotten an organizer from Vincent! Just what I need! = ) hahaha especially when it comes with the monthly calendar! It helps alot in the planning of my work load = ) Dawn got my Bodyshop shower set and Samuel gotten a super cute thumb drive from Yingshan and Chaplin gotten the brain teaser that Samuel bought!
We left for Samuel’s place to mahjong overnite at about 2.30am! lol hand itchy itchy!!
3:08 PM
It’s the Christmas week and I can finally get down to business in buying pressies!! Not much time left though so…gotta hurry = )
Finally we managed to watch AVATAR!! Simply Fantastic!
If you wanna choose between the “Storm Warriors” and Avatar, please please please go watch Avatar. Storm Warriors is only alright…. Perhaps it was too graphic and too pictorial on some scenes. But then again, I was amazed at how the two guys still look the same after .. Say abt 10 years?
Avatar is wwwwwwwooooooooowwwwwwww. Amazing!! The Na’vi people actually look good!
Hmmm.. I still have not caught my “New Moon” Damm….looks like I will be watching it online again…
Had shopping spree on Sunday!
First had turtle soup at Macpherson (I think) with Samuel, Auntie and Desmond . But of cos, I din had the turtle soup, I took the herbal black chicken instead. Kinda afraid to consume turtle soup but I can see Samuel loves it haha especially the skin. Auntie says it tastes like agar agar. Oh well.. I think I will stick to my black chicken for the time being kekeke.. till I am able to even think abt eating turtle.
Afterwhich, we went on to orchard and lastly to bugis for Samuel’s haircut.
Bought a lot of things but not enough!!What are my purchases? Let’s see : -
1 Fred Perry bag
1 engraved pen (Not sure abt the brand, but it's nice!!)
1 Muji organiser for 2010
1 ACME pen (finally) lol
1 pair of Everlast shoes
1 Dior uv sunblock
Shall cont’d shopping today for Christmas pressie and I need to top up some skincare products = )
Alright gotta to find time for meetups
Wednesday shall be with Layee, SanYing and Eunice and maybe even Jocelyn and Padma. I wanna play mahjong!!
Kinda excited about Christmas Eve = )
2:31 PM
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Hooray ! the last paper has ended.
Time to relax heee next week then come and think about the results.....
Gotten a new phone = ) E72 in champagne bronze. Simply love the phone to bits! especially when it's a gift. Thank you big big to Samuel. He has realised that my phone was acting up for a freaking long time that i wasn't able to call out and the touch screen just isn't working. Phone seems to be protesting big time and therefore comes the final verdict. A change of new phone = )
I am still trying to get use to the new phone and its mechanism. It's been more than a year since i last use a Nokia phone. Got a bit laggy lol.
Anyway.. it time for shopping =) shall go shopping with Samuel soon =)
Since the exams are over,hopefully it will come soon.... will it really come as promised? or will it be forgotten with the wind? I know i must trust and believe it will cos simply Samuel has given the promise and i know that somehow he will not fail it and is waiting for the right time and the right place to arrive. Just hope that it will not be too long before the ultimatum reach.
2:56 AM
Monday, December 14, 2009
first paper?
dun wanna think abt it...
god please bless me with at least a pass!
hai~~~
now going to work on the next two papers.
10:40 AM
Friday, December 11, 2009
I am not feeling fantastic today or rather right now
tml is my first paper and nothing seems to enter into my brain.
In addition, I hate the particular feeling within me. It like every little bit of feeling I have is being jumbled up.
Due to some reasons, what I am going through now sucks big time.
my mind keeps wandering in the wrong direction even when it’s not suppose to be…
please let me concentrate on my revision!
I am going nuts… just let me study!!
1:29 PM
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Hmmm. Getting emo lately? That’s why so many post in one day whahahaha
Kekeke but this time the emo is on the positive end.
I feel blessed!
I feel fantastic and fabulous!
I feel super comfortable!
I treasure what I have now and I am enjoying every single bit of it.
Though sometimes…. I will feel sour (only a tiny little bit) but hey if I dun then I think I am not a female. Lol but thankfully, the assurance given always put me at ease ^__________^
Now the downside of what i drag…
My textbooks!!! Goodness, chp 7 of hr is killing me though it’s only 5 chapters to focus but dam, there isn’t any focus area at all. WTT
5:11 PM
I am attracted to you.
It’s never abt ur looks or ur education or material matters. All these are nothing but the superficial that most pple sought after. To me, it’s more abt the meeting of our minds and the connection I believe we share. That’s what important to me.
Nevertheless, r/s is never definite. It all boils down to how much two person wants the r/s to last. I have always believe that in order to progress as a couple, they must have the same goal that they work towards in the r/s.
If one person is lagging behind without the intention to move forward or to take a step, the r/s would not be able to cont’d. Once there’s a share a heart ( hmmm sounds like imc lol) , things would work out eventually. The timing is the essence of all but yet how many couples waste each other’s time when its obvious they are not walking in the same direction.
I hope we are on the same platform that I feel we are…
3:18 PM
Monday, December 07, 2009
My first visit to changing appetite and the food were fantastic! Thanks to Samuel’s recommendation, we ordered a Barbarian Burger, one seafood starter and one lychee drink. Goodness, thankfully we only ordered one portion. The barbarian burger is simply huge and same goes for the drink. I think if I were to finish one glass of that by myself, I would be so bloated that it could even prevent me from enjoying the dinner!
Well, we wanted to catch a show but there wasn’t any nice showing @ GV. No new moon, no avatar as yet. We were one day early before new moon screens. I am so gonna catch new moon!! Haha of cos the drawing magnet would be Edward! Who else? But my colleagues were saying that Jacob is HOT!!
We shall see, I think I still like the never dying love that Edward showers at Belle as compared to Jacob. No that Jacob isn’t good but Edward puts Belle’s life as his priority = ) So sweet = ) Does vampire really exist? I wonder…
Yes, it’s now down to just two of us. I am looking forward to the moment that he prepares….
Lots of photos to be uploaded = )
12:45 PM
Am loving my new haircut = )
Though it’s not a big difference but I think my hair stylist is simply fabulous. It’s not the first one that took 2 hour plus just to trim! whahaha it’s the other stylist, Huston Lai. I would recommend him for whoever wishes to cut their hair at Salon Esprit @ Tampines1.
Oh well, anyway, I bumped into some weird man after my haircut on Saturday. I was trying to get a Filofax organizer for Year 2010 at Tampines1. I was browsing the shelf cos the Filofax for this particular shop isn’t locked away like TIMES or MPH. This man perhaps in his mid-30s was standing beside me for quite a while.
Suddenly, he pops his namecard in front of me and I couldn’t catch what he was mumbling. He took out his iphone and asks me for my number. I was like “ for what”
“oh to make frens” DiaoZZZ!! “I dun think it’s appropriate”
I tot that was sufficient to chase him off my sight. But man this guy’s face is pretty thick. “ Sms me when you are free” Dots!! Triple Dots!! I simply walked away and he started saying “it’s pleasure to meet” “Remember to call me” “I will be waiting for you” WTF to the max!!! EEEWwwww!! I went on to see other items and guess wat… he was following behind me on every lane that I change in the shop. Damm it.
My signals must be spoiled that day!! Goodness!!Time to fix my signals….
Overall, it’s pretty hilarious and amazing. I am stunned that such things will happen in a shop.. Not as if I am a teenager or at the pub sia. Simply Weird!!
Anyway, enuff of those nonsensical things. Time for some happy updates.
Samuel has been wonderful = ) A very sincere and caring person. The best part is he does not lie to me thus far. He has been very truthful about his actions, his past and his thoughts. That is something very important to me and I appreciate for all that he has done.
From the nitti gritty details of picking me up, making sure that I have breakfast , preventing me from bumping into ppl on the street (well I guess I very lun zhun kekeke), even when riding on his bike he would make sure that I am safe etc. All these actions speaks a thousand words to me.
Nevertheless, I felt very comfortable with him. Oh well both of us are preparing for examinations commencing this weekend! Hai~~ shakehead…. Kinda scared for imc and ahrp! Damm… dun noe how much are the group assignments = ( … Hopefully I will be able to clear all modules and move on to the next trimester.
I wish to spend more time with him after exams. But of cos, I am definitely going to find time to meet up with Layee, Padma and Jocelyn! Welcome back Layee!! Hee yesh!! Lots to tell you and we must arrange roller-blading session. I wan to drop my waistline lol.
11:44 AM
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
have many things on my mind , yet i am unable to share.
the right time and the right place will dictate when i am able to share with my dearest bunch.
progress is pretty smooth with little bumps here and there
i am surprised by my own actions.
i am amazed by the feelings that has been developed within me, sweet, anxiety, uncertainty,happiness! all jumbled together
I dun even remember feeling like such since i started dating.
what does it imply?
totally irresistable to entice me of my current behavior.
Looking forward........
3:46 PM
Phew!!! The assignment for this semester is considered to be finished!not very excited abt my results for ahrp though! Damm… means I have to read super duper hard on the textbook. Fingers-crossed! Hopefully imc and sm are on the right track… Need clear all the modules!!
Simply tired!!! But yet have to gear up for the examinations.
Not much to update thou… just that LAYEE is back for vacation!!!!!hoooray!!!really gotta catch up soon = ) a pity that val isn’t back as yet.
3:38 PM
